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sillynicegirl [userpic]

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November 6th, 2007 (09:32 pm)

Wow, it's been over a year since I posted. I apologize for not answering comments.
So much has changed. I'm 26 now (I think I was 23 when I first posted on this).
I am divorced. My last post was when things were going down hill and I was stressed about having to tell some one else I had this.
My ex and I still talk and he's doing great. I do feel bad that our relationship didn't work and he ended up getting HSV from me.

I am with a wonderful guy. We've been together a little over a year now. He didn't take the HSV news very well at first and it almost split us up. Luckily it didn't and he still has yet to get it from me which we're both happy about.

I hope you're all doing well.
I'll check this more often.
I'd love to meet some new friends if anyone else is out there needing a friend!.

sillynicegirl [userpic]

It's a club that no one wants to belong to

March 8th, 2006 (11:00 pm)

Sometimes I feel like I should have a sticker on my forehead that says "imperfect" or "reject".
I am not part of everyone else, I am only part of the 1 in 5 people that have this.
Why do I have to be put into a category?. Does that mean I am only allowed to be with people that are in the same category as I am in? Is it fair of me to want to be with someone that doesn't have this?.
Is it fair to expect anyone to risk their health for a relationship?
My husband did this without question. He was willing to be a member of this "club" just to be with me.
That's just proof of his love for me.
But... is it fair of me to expect that from anyone? and if it isn't, why do I have to be placed in such a different category than everyone else in society? am I really that different? do I not deserve love because I have HSV?

sillynicegirl [userpic]

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March 7th, 2006 (10:30 pm)

If anyone out there in LJ land is going through emotional times because of HSV and needs someone to talk to.. please Email me at sillynicegirl@gmail.com

sillynicegirl [userpic]

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February 25th, 2006 (12:27 am)

I hope anyone that reads this is doing well.
I haven't had an OB in a while.
The emotional side of it has gotten so much better. It's become a part of my life now and I rarely cry over it. It's crazy to think that I've almost had this for 2 years...
Every once in a while I think about it and it gets to me though.

sillynicegirl [userpic]

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November 18th, 2005 (03:45 pm)

Hello all,

I's been a while since I've been around here.... Nothing is really new.

I started a new community to deal with the emotional side of being diagnosed with HSV. All the communities deal with the health side of it but for me the emotional part was even harder.



sillynicegirl [userpic]

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July 30th, 2005 (10:08 pm)

I wrote this as a comment in a new friends journal but thought it would be interesting to add to my own journal:

Before I had this I always thought of people that had herpes as "dirty" and "slutty". I always thought that because I haven't slept with many guys and only had long term relationships I would never get this.
Obviously my thoughts have changed and I realize how ignorant I really was.

It's amazing how our outlook on people and life in general can change from our own life experiences!!.

sillynicegirl [userpic]

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July 30th, 2005 (05:14 pm)

It's been a while since I've posted here or even checked this journal.

The other night I couldn't sleep because the emotions hit me once again. I sat here at 3am crying my eyes out over something that has become a part of my life. It's been well over a year but I still refuse to let this be who I am.
I've moved on and let go so much from where my life was a year ago but it still kills me inside.
I've met a couple of people through this journal and I hope I was able to help them in any way. I know talking to them has helped me.

sillynicegirl [userpic]


May 11th, 2005 (10:51 pm)

Tonight I am really angry.
It's been a whole year since I've gotten "this".
It's been months since I've let it get to me.
I'm thinking about my ex and how he did this to me and how he knew about it but didn't tell me until I got diagnosed.
Now my fiance has it because of me and I hate that.
He has a new girlfriend now and she is very nice and very sweet and I doubt she knows about his past.
Such is life...
I'll get over this and be happy again soon.

sillynicegirl [userpic]

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April 26th, 2005 (10:54 pm)

Hello everyone :)
Next week last year is when I got this whole "thing". It will also be the week of my birthday. Yes, such a lovely birthday present.
It brings some of the emotions back and reminds me of what a difficult year it has been.
BUT I'm still alive, I'm healthy and I have a wonderful boyfriend who accepts me regardless of this. So, actually it's been a good year :).
Things happen for the best, or so I believe. Fate has put us all here and this is meant to make us stronger.

Thanks to all that have responded to me on here :).
If anyone would like to talk in email or IM... email me at sillynice@softhome.net and I'll give you my real email address/IM/LJ name/whatever :).

sillynicegirl [userpic]

(no subject)

March 31st, 2005 (10:04 pm)

Like I said in my last post, this isn't my "actual journal"

I have HSV2. I got it from my ex. He knew he had it and didn't tell me.

I'm seeing from the communities that I have joined that a lot of people are going through the emotional pain that I lived through when I first got diagnosed. I've had HSV for almost a year now and I am ok with it.

When I was diagnosed my whole life came crashing down. I was ruined, my life was over. I couldn't even go to work or face my friends and family.

I met a lot of great people online during that time, I was too embarassed to talk to anyone in real life. The people online helped me get through it and were there for me.

I'm hoping now that maybe I can return that and help someone that is feeling hurt.
If anyone (male or female, any age) needs someone to talk to about the emotional side of being diagnosed with HSV, please respond to this. I'm more than happy to take it to email if needed or whatever works.

Life does go on, I promise.

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